... is good.

I'm gearing up for the holidays. There is a part of me that is excited, while the other part of me just wants them to hurry up and pass. I could play the 'I remember' game, but all that does is bring back memories I'd rather not drudge up. Ahh... the old days...

Friday is Thanksgiving-shopping day. The meal has been planned and Chelle and I are going to hit the stores and get what we need. Again, there is a part of me that's jazzed. But I'm sure Chelle will agree with me when I say I hope we get done quick. Nothing says 'happy holidays' like getting plowed into @ wal-mart by some old lady in a motorized scooter... FAIL.

My mom was supposed to be coming to visit next week... yeah... That one isn't happening. Thanks to her jackass 'boyfriend' she's broke and back to being a prisoner of her own home. The new plan is that they are coming to visit the first of next month. We'll see. I'm not going to hold my breath. I don't want to be disappointed again.

Christmas... less than 2 months away and I can already say that it needs to just be over and done with. Meaningless holiday imo.

As I look back on this past year, I can say I've made quite a few mistakes. I won't go into them, but I have learned from them. There are somethings I wish I NEVER would have done/said/acted upon, and there are others I wish I would have. But, such is life and it DOES go on.

I've also lost (without trying) about 75 pounds over the last year. It is starting to become apparent in my clothes. VERY apparent. While I AM excited about losing weight (for my health and cosmetically) I'm bumming because my clothing doesn't fit anymore. And the awkwardness of being at an in-between stage makes it nearly impossible to find clothing that fits right.

So, with that being said, I'm looking forward to the new year. There are some things I would like to achieve in 2009. For now, I will keep them a secret, as I don't want to jinx it. >.<

I suppose that's all for now. My goal for the moment is to simply live... adeiu